Stress just keeps coming and I'm learning that my abilities to withstand it are decaying...fast; perhaps faster than I can shore them up. Now my mom wants me up in NY for a wk (atleast) around July 4th for a relatively big extended family reunion (reunion on 4th, stay w/ immediate family before & after).
Love my family. But, getting up there from TX means a many hr flight with at least one, usually two connections depending on which airport I fly in to and then a couple hour drive to the small town where they live or walking across a tarmac and climbing into a smaller plane (which I'm fine with-the plane, not the stairs or the walking right now) if I fly into the closer airport. Honestly the entire idea of going to an airport alone (cuz hubby needs to work) and dealing with getting my walker thru security, shoes on and off, even if I don't have a carry on (which would mean either spending money at the airport or hrs of boring flight) & I don't do well in crowds.
In addition..my family doesn't get that here..at home, for the most part I haven't really been more than maybe 20 feet away from Hubby or my puppy dog, Ebony unless I'm at the drs. for the last yr. Ebby actually gets very anxious when I'm not home. When I go take a shower, she'll wait in the bedroom for me to emerge even if hubby is sitting in the living rm. So in addition to the absence being hard on me..I think it would be stressful on her as well, and she's not the young puppy I like pretending she is
Now, I have the MAJOR stress of telling my mom I'm not coming up this yr and trying to get her to believe the reasons.. blech
